Growing UP!!!

    Wow I have a working teenager... I can hardly believe it.  My son is working at Mcds just 15 Min's away. He started about a month ago. He is doing really well there. I think he likes it. I hope so anyways. Sure is a new thing for all of us. We are getting used to the third worker in the house. Now we have to figure out who does what and when they do it. I have trained my kids to do house chores and who gets to do them and when. With him working it has thrown us off a little, but we are working through it.

     Life certainly has a way of sneaking up you. Just a few short years ago he was a baby and  still in my arms. Now he is a sophomore and working at a job. I miss my little baby boy.  I miss his curls and sweet baby hands and that grin. And all the times spent in the hospital. Well only because it was him and I time alone. Now it's off to work. And that is our time together. I will say we have had some good conversations to and from there.

                                            Sarah

                                             Zach

    Sarah is growing up too. She will be a freshmen this fall. She will be taking drivers ed this summer and  getting a permit. WOW!! I too miss her days of being a baby. I miss being able to dress her the way I want to and picking out her clothes and going to the girls section of a dept store. Now we go to to the Jr's section just not the same. Now she wears a size 8 and half shoe almost my size. Now she wants to pick out her own clothes and go off with her friends. Iam missing my babies but loving the fact that they are growing up. Pray for our teenagers that they may walk on the truth and the light. And not turn away from it.

My Dad

So as of August 15th 2011 I am without an earthly father. Of course I really did not have one most of my life I mean he was living and breathing just not not with me. See my parents divorced when I was eight. It was not an easy thing to go through but we did. My brothers and sister and I.  So for most of my life I did not have an earthly father, but always had the heavenly one. Thank you God for that.

  Anyways I did have a line of communication with him until about a year or two ago. You know how life gets in the way and things and people get  words and thoughts mixed up and then your in the middle of it all. Well that happened to me and he stopped talking to me. He Even did not want to acknowledge that I was his Daughter. That really hurt. So now Iam left with this empty feeling and longing to recover the relationship we sort of had. I did not want him to die when we had not come to an understanding, yet that is exactly what happen. So now I have the Joy of never saying my peace and him saying he loved me one more time. I mean I know way down deep he did love me and whatever happened between the Sib's and him and myself was secondary to his love for me. But it did not feel like it.

  I went to the funeral in MI and never felt more alone and disconnected then I did when we got there.  I mean really we were not even in the obit. His real and biological children not included. I was told that is how he wanted it.  So sad..... That really hurt my family. I did manage to get in the eulogy and the car line from the funeral home to cemetery. But it was not extended to me I had to ask. So for pity's sake they let us. Just wanted to say Thank you for that. I know I sound bitter but really I am so hurt and angery. I guess I am in the anger stage right now. Not a fun place to be. Anyways I know life goes on and maybe he is in heaven and maybe he is NOT!!! I don't know. I do know it was his chice and he snubbed God along time ago. I do hope for his sake and mine that maybe at the very end he managed to get it right. But I won't know until I get to heaven. So far away yet so close. YEAH!!!

   Well that is my heart thus far on this subject. I am in the healing process and all.

   Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.    1 Peter 5; 7

Learner's permit

      Hello friends,

            So yesterday was a big day for my 15 yr old son. He got his Learner's permit!!!! YIKES!!! I can hardly believe i have one old enough to drive. Yes folks Iam that Old. LOL!!! Already he has been driving all over even on the belt line and driving the speed limit. I know it is crazy but he's gotta learn. So out we go. He is doing really well and Iam so proud of him. Practice makes perfect. Just like following Christ practice makes better. So we read and study and do the speed limit if you will. that way we can get to know God better and deal with life better. I told my son that driving is a privilege not a right and it can go at anytime. Like Jesus you follow me and it is a privilege and your right to do so. But that don't make life easy. We still have our troubles and Bad spots as one of my friends put it. So we can GROW!!!

   So grow Iam as a parent of a new driver. patients  and kindness and teacher. So when your on the road be these things b/c you don't know who is behind the wheel. It could be a new driver and a parent who is a nervous wreck. LOL!! Please pray for us as we enter this new stage of life. And that he will grow into a great cautious driver. And Mom and Dad won't lose their minds. LOL!!!